Sunday, September 14, 2008
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from th day i stepped here,
i shld have realised tht i had to stop learning,
cos i lost it all.
each time i stared at th piano,
my mind is blank.
i can barely play any songs.
comparing th time in th past&now,
i barely had time to practice.
looking back at th past,
i regret for wasting my precious time unefficiently.
i took every single practice i had not serious enough.
i shld have joined earlier,
i could have been in 3rd grade when i left;
or maybe in 4th grade.
last June when i returned,
i could play 2 songs on th Marimba.
now on th piano,
i can barely play any.
i told her to keep th promise tht we had.
"send me to a music school after i finished my O's"
upon flipping th scores in th file which i had kept for 3yrs,
i could barely read th italian words lyk 'staccato'
so what will happen if i enrol into a school after my O's?
will i still remember all these words?
am i able to take the exams & practicals?
or maybe,
i shld just give up.
give up on music.
cos you said tht "music will bring you no where, "
i used to love music so much,
i even fought with you to take the exam.
i could remember for the first time you refused to sign for me the form,
i forged your signature &took my savings to sign up.
for th 2nd grade th same thing happen.
until you saw the exam booklet,
you are so mad tht your voice is as loud as thunder.
but nver did i give up.
but perhaps,
i shld stop the perseverance.
i did not join band,
i did not carry on with music.
i did not play any musical instrument.
the career i want in my future isn't related to music.
i guess it's time i have to let go.
let go of my passion for music.
nver will i have a chance to play on those instruments unless i return back to fuchun..
Each time i returned,
th memories can't stop flowing back to me.
We hardly contact each other.
But still,
I know our friendship is there.
The last meeting is on Aug 29th,
celebrating my birthday &catching up with one another.
I admit i had much fun with you all(:
Looking back at th past,
all i know is tht we smuggled food in &played all day.
all th fun we had was buried in th past.
I knew we could not go back to th past,
but each time i past by,
i would stop awhile,
thinking abt th happy&fun memories we all had.
although th 23-years old building may be torn down anytime, we wunct know.
th happy memories will stay;
